Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Sometimes,
even i myself am amazed..
how come i'm back to blogging so quickly?
mustnt be that a good news.. haha.
it's a shame.
for me to forget how nice it is to spell everything out.
helps to straighten the thoughts! dont you agree?
i know i know..
there're just Some stuff, not encouraged to be known by the public.
Skills! i hope i still have them.
a happy past-time i could say:)
so tsy!! smikes.
Friend-
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance.
I just got to realise,
how easy is it for us to forget the meaning behind such a simple word.
i always do believe quality over quantity;
and always pride myself for knowing the best and having the best.
not that others are unworthy of my time and attention.
Exlusiveness!
i thought them to know me very well;
and of course! the very few who are non-lian jia.
at least towards me.
Reciprocate-
1. to give, feel etc in return.
2.to make a return, as for something given.
I was told that many people do something,
befriend somebody, be nice to somebody;
as a starter for reciprocation-
to hope that someone will treat them with the special treatment they recieved.
i must remind all- this is: lian jia!! -.-
A few months back,
i befriended such a person.
as lian jia as a human can be.
as petty as tsy can be.
as moody as a poly tsy can be. laughs*
Do Not Laugh.
( now i wondered if he's my retribution-.-)
unpredictable, like the weather.
His mood varies till a scary extend.
even scarier then moi!
such a wide spectrum;
from the wonderful friend to an immediate stranger.
so alarming obvious and lethal;
that a single look can put a cockroach to death.
yup! some people call it PMS.
but hey.. didnt realise a guy can have that too.
i do joke- maybe he's helping me PMS. haha.
nobody know MoodSwings like tsy.
tsy; the Queen of Moodswings. remember those days?
but hey! i do feel guilty!! haha.
so i understand moodswings, PMS, bad mood.
i can tolerate; to a such a huge extend that it sometimes even surprises me.
after the storm, i will still welcome one back with open arms.
to forget and forgive whatever damage my poor mind and heart experienced.
One can say i'm so very DumbDumb.
i dont give an eye for an eye;
especially not when i consider you a friend.
have nothing much to be proud of;
just the fact that i take care what's mine>.< (so possessive!!)
cant help it though..
maybe i have recieved enlightenment.
when someone PMS, in a bad mood,
refuses to speak or just- act differently from the norm,
i'll just immediately realise something must be wrong-
why are all those negative energy directed towards me?
have i done, or said something that brought about this treatment.
Panic.Worries. i must sort it out and make it alright again.
appease. appease. appease.
i will- to coax a smile, trying to revive the situation.
not many were that immune to my 'charm'..
often enough,
i'll just try harder if it doesnt work out.
DumbDumb as i can be..
i believe sincerity touches:)
I still remember the first time our dear friend had a PMS..
OngQQ (SGH gf) and i were so worried.
trying in vain to appease that someone.
With increased frequency..
At the 'n' th time,
i was told my OngQQ ( dear SGH gf) that:
hack him la. he bad mood his problem.
do friends treat each other by feeding each other glass?
i was told he's not worthy for my care.
how could the PMS so obviously be just towards me?
when i could no doubt say; we shld be the best buds..
The brain without doubt, condemned.
but the heart cant bear not to care.
hey! it's my friend. how could i do this?
i lasted ~5months.
haha. true to be told;
this is the final straw..
i didnt appease him, or try to coax him human again.
dunno if i'll live to regret..
am SO known,
for doing stuff without a thought for reciprocation.
i like to make people smile,
i like those small actions of mine to make someone's day.
the thought of wishing you'll be as nice to me,
as i am to you never crosses my mind.
if it was in my poly days,
immediate codemn and discrimination has already taken place if you were just to even block my way-.-
Sometimes i do wonder.. why do i try so hard?
is it because i cant stand to see someone not converted by my care.
is it because i'm overly concern?
is it because he's too much a bad habit of mine?
or is it because i'm that non-lian jia..
i do not know:(
so here am i...
trying to suppress all my anxiety and worries.
blocking out all negative thoughts.
feigning that i dont harbour a hope..
true to told here:
i dun wish for reciprocation, i just hope for all to be fine and be back to normal.
back to the point which i remember and hold dear..
i maybe labelled Dumb.
but hey! dont anyone know;
the extent of Dumb-ness is directly proportional to how much i care for you...
footnote:
doing nothing is worse then going through the extreme dumb-ness to right the situation.
i need strength!!
even i myself am amazed..
how come i'm back to blogging so quickly?
mustnt be that a good news.. haha.
it's a shame.
for me to forget how nice it is to spell everything out.
helps to straighten the thoughts! dont you agree?
i know i know..
there're just Some stuff, not encouraged to be known by the public.
Skills! i hope i still have them.
a happy past-time i could say:)
so tsy!! smikes.
Friend-
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance.
I just got to realise,
how easy is it for us to forget the meaning behind such a simple word.
i always do believe quality over quantity;
and always pride myself for knowing the best and having the best.
not that others are unworthy of my time and attention.
Exlusiveness!
i thought them to know me very well;
and of course! the very few who are non-lian jia.
at least towards me.
Reciprocate-
1. to give, feel etc in return.
2.to make a return, as for something given.
I was told that many people do something,
befriend somebody, be nice to somebody;
as a starter for reciprocation-
to hope that someone will treat them with the special treatment they recieved.
i must remind all- this is: lian jia!! -.-
A few months back,
i befriended such a person.
as lian jia as a human can be.
as petty as tsy can be.
as moody as a poly tsy can be. laughs*
Do Not Laugh.
( now i wondered if he's my retribution-.-)
unpredictable, like the weather.
His mood varies till a scary extend.
even scarier then moi!
such a wide spectrum;
from the wonderful friend to an immediate stranger.
so alarming obvious and lethal;
that a single look can put a cockroach to death.
yup! some people call it PMS.
but hey.. didnt realise a guy can have that too.
i do joke- maybe he's helping me PMS. haha.
nobody know MoodSwings like tsy.
tsy; the Queen of Moodswings. remember those days?
but hey! i do feel guilty!! haha.
so i understand moodswings, PMS, bad mood.
i can tolerate; to a such a huge extend that it sometimes even surprises me.
after the storm, i will still welcome one back with open arms.
to forget and forgive whatever damage my poor mind and heart experienced.
One can say i'm so very DumbDumb.
i dont give an eye for an eye;
especially not when i consider you a friend.
have nothing much to be proud of;
just the fact that i take care what's mine>.< (so possessive!!)
cant help it though..
maybe i have recieved enlightenment.
when someone PMS, in a bad mood,
refuses to speak or just- act differently from the norm,
i'll just immediately realise something must be wrong-
why are all those negative energy directed towards me?
have i done, or said something that brought about this treatment.
Panic.Worries. i must sort it out and make it alright again.
appease. appease. appease.
i will- to coax a smile, trying to revive the situation.
not many were that immune to my 'charm'..
often enough,
i'll just try harder if it doesnt work out.
DumbDumb as i can be..
i believe sincerity touches:)
I still remember the first time our dear friend had a PMS..
OngQQ (SGH gf) and i were so worried.
trying in vain to appease that someone.
With increased frequency..
At the 'n' th time,
i was told my OngQQ ( dear SGH gf) that:
hack him la. he bad mood his problem.
do friends treat each other by feeding each other glass?
i was told he's not worthy for my care.
how could the PMS so obviously be just towards me?
when i could no doubt say; we shld be the best buds..
The brain without doubt, condemned.
but the heart cant bear not to care.
hey! it's my friend. how could i do this?
i lasted ~5months.
haha. true to be told;
this is the final straw..
i didnt appease him, or try to coax him human again.
dunno if i'll live to regret..
am SO known,
for doing stuff without a thought for reciprocation.
i like to make people smile,
i like those small actions of mine to make someone's day.
the thought of wishing you'll be as nice to me,
as i am to you never crosses my mind.
if it was in my poly days,
immediate codemn and discrimination has already taken place if you were just to even block my way-.-
Sometimes i do wonder.. why do i try so hard?
is it because i cant stand to see someone not converted by my care.
is it because i'm overly concern?
is it because he's too much a bad habit of mine?
or is it because i'm that non-lian jia..
i do not know:(
so here am i...
trying to suppress all my anxiety and worries.
blocking out all negative thoughts.
feigning that i dont harbour a hope..
true to told here:
i dun wish for reciprocation, i just hope for all to be fine and be back to normal.
back to the point which i remember and hold dear..
i maybe labelled Dumb.
but hey! dont anyone know;
the extent of Dumb-ness is directly proportional to how much i care for you...
footnote:
doing nothing is worse then going through the extreme dumb-ness to right the situation.
i need strength!!
1/05/2010 08:22:00 PM