Monday, January 18, 2010
it's Monday again..
kinda freaking how time flies..
without knowing,
i've worked for- 6months at SGH.
without knowing,
it didnt seem so long to me though.
Did i mention i received xmas gifts?!
bottle the envy! >.<
dont you agree belated gifts holds the most surprises?
like after the disappointment etc..
but keep in mind;
this doesnt mean i mind getting belated gifts.
*Pointing at Franco*
i still hail punctuality:)
From my cousins..
Super haPPy!
among those is a sliver Calvin Klevin Jeans triple ring.
In sliver.
it's amazing how this ohh-so-simple looking ring cost.
sky-priced. i would not get it for myself. muhaha~
the finanically stable. that's how i categorised them.
Love the ring:)) wearing it everyday;
despite how mismatch it looks with the rest of me.
always one who adores rings over necklace.
necklaces? not really my cup of mocha.
they clashes with my eyerings! hah~
i was This___ faithful to my ring.
always sticking to one.
Remember the days where i lost my 'Ring' in SP.
it was horrible!
would of course go to great extent looking for it.
Friends of mine; know how 'emotionally attached' am i to my ring.
i'm a ninny at gifts! OOPS~
Gifts-
chosen with the thought for other.
maybe that's why most people treasure them more.
as a self-acclaimed Ninny,
my collection of gifts, will put any Garang Guni to shame.
From family to the significant Other,
From the useless to the useful but made useless,
(sometimes you just dun bear to use them)
i Keep!
my aunt always say: all those are my future dowry -.-''
Recently i've acquired quite a number of new gifts.
My soft-toy collection grew-
from my single tweety and JiJi to the now;
family of: nine!
never bought any softtoys for myself.
buying for yourself-
kinda defeats the purpose. Right?
needless to say, they each carry a story.
the competition is fierce.
ask me! which touches me the most.
you can never guess..
it maybe weird.
but hey! i sometimes feel:
A gift can blind.
the single moment of surprise can be a good bribe.
as if a sudden memory lost-
tantrums forgotten.
it can sometimes even cast the other person into a better light.
cant understand why am i saying all this.
Ahem~ maybe this few days.
recieved too many gifts. haha.
must always be wary of long arms of lian jia-ness:)
embarrassing but proud to say.
the best gifts recieved.
those that really touches.
will reduce one into tears if they're out sight or damaged.
Damaged.
i cna remember one well..
it 's a cake! haha.
After a hard day of working at bugis,
i was presented with a strawberry strudel.
(not from my boss of course -.-)
home and was just about to eat it when i accidently dropped;
the whole piece of the floor.
it was fruggy bad.
the effect was immediate.
a plumber would have given up hope on me.
can still remb how heart wrenching it was.
sobbing into the phone that my food's gone.
all would say it's only a strudel.. -.-
and i tsy! Ice Queen; reduced to such..
hah!!
that's what i call-
a gift that well appreciated that you mourn at its lost.
a gift that was really cherised.
i Do pity you.
all who have given or recieved gifts;
to not know such a fact.
Presenting someone with a gift is also an Art.
Apparently many sought after.
be it romantico or plain slobbish.
the ultimate goal is to surprise and touch.
can you remb once;
where the process of recieving a gift outdo the gift itself?
i have. up to date. Two.
i deemed best and unforgettable.
you can only guess:)
Gifts.
people love to get them.
sometimes the more the merrier.
sometimes the more expensive the merrier.
On the other hand,
the experience of recieving and losing it sometimes;
Outdo the gift itself.
footnote:
reflect!!>.<
kinda freaking how time flies..
without knowing,
i've worked for- 6months at SGH.
without knowing,
it didnt seem so long to me though.
Did i mention i received xmas gifts?!
bottle the envy! >.<
dont you agree belated gifts holds the most surprises?
like after the disappointment etc..
but keep in mind;
this doesnt mean i mind getting belated gifts.
*Pointing at Franco*
i still hail punctuality:)
From my cousins..
Super haPPy!
among those is a sliver Calvin Klevin Jeans triple ring.
In sliver.
it's amazing how this ohh-so-simple looking ring cost.
sky-priced. i would not get it for myself. muhaha~
the finanically stable. that's how i categorised them.
Love the ring:)) wearing it everyday;
despite how mismatch it looks with the rest of me.
always one who adores rings over necklace.
necklaces? not really my cup of mocha.
they clashes with my eyerings! hah~
i was This___ faithful to my ring.
always sticking to one.
Remember the days where i lost my 'Ring' in SP.
it was horrible!
would of course go to great extent looking for it.
Friends of mine; know how 'emotionally attached' am i to my ring.
i'm a ninny at gifts! OOPS~
Gifts-
chosen with the thought for other.
maybe that's why most people treasure them more.
as a self-acclaimed Ninny,
my collection of gifts, will put any Garang Guni to shame.
From family to the significant Other,
From the useless to the useful but made useless,
(sometimes you just dun bear to use them)
i Keep!
my aunt always say: all those are my future dowry -.-''
Recently i've acquired quite a number of new gifts.
My soft-toy collection grew-
from my single tweety and JiJi to the now;
family of: nine!
never bought any softtoys for myself.
buying for yourself-
kinda defeats the purpose. Right?
needless to say, they each carry a story.
the competition is fierce.
ask me! which touches me the most.
you can never guess..
it maybe weird.
but hey! i sometimes feel:
A gift can blind.
the single moment of surprise can be a good bribe.
as if a sudden memory lost-
tantrums forgotten.
it can sometimes even cast the other person into a better light.
cant understand why am i saying all this.
Ahem~ maybe this few days.
recieved too many gifts. haha.
must always be wary of long arms of lian jia-ness:)
embarrassing but proud to say.
the best gifts recieved.
those that really touches.
will reduce one into tears if they're out sight or damaged.
Damaged.
i cna remember one well..
it 's a cake! haha.
After a hard day of working at bugis,
i was presented with a strawberry strudel.
(not from my boss of course -.-)
home and was just about to eat it when i accidently dropped;
the whole piece of the floor.
it was fruggy bad.
the effect was immediate.
a plumber would have given up hope on me.
can still remb how heart wrenching it was.
sobbing into the phone that my food's gone.
all would say it's only a strudel.. -.-
and i tsy! Ice Queen; reduced to such..
hah!!
that's what i call-
a gift that well appreciated that you mourn at its lost.
a gift that was really cherised.
i Do pity you.
all who have given or recieved gifts;
to not know such a fact.
Presenting someone with a gift is also an Art.
Apparently many sought after.
be it romantico or plain slobbish.
the ultimate goal is to surprise and touch.
can you remb once;
where the process of recieving a gift outdo the gift itself?
i have. up to date. Two.
i deemed best and unforgettable.
you can only guess:)
Gifts.
people love to get them.
sometimes the more the merrier.
sometimes the more expensive the merrier.
On the other hand,
the experience of recieving and losing it sometimes;
Outdo the gift itself.
footnote:
reflect!!>.<
1/18/2010 06:37:00 PM
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Sometimes,
even i myself am amazed..
how come i'm back to blogging so quickly?
mustnt be that a good news.. haha.
it's a shame.
for me to forget how nice it is to spell everything out.
helps to straighten the thoughts! dont you agree?
i know i know..
there're just Some stuff, not encouraged to be known by the public.
Skills! i hope i still have them.
a happy past-time i could say:)
so tsy!! smikes.
Friend-
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance.
I just got to realise,
how easy is it for us to forget the meaning behind such a simple word.
i always do believe quality over quantity;
and always pride myself for knowing the best and having the best.
not that others are unworthy of my time and attention.
Exlusiveness!
i thought them to know me very well;
and of course! the very few who are non-lian jia.
at least towards me.
Reciprocate-
1. to give, feel etc in return.
2.to make a return, as for something given.
I was told that many people do something,
befriend somebody, be nice to somebody;
as a starter for reciprocation-
to hope that someone will treat them with the special treatment they recieved.
i must remind all- this is: lian jia!! -.-
A few months back,
i befriended such a person.
as lian jia as a human can be.
as petty as tsy can be.
as moody as a poly tsy can be. laughs*
Do Not Laugh.
( now i wondered if he's my retribution-.-)
unpredictable, like the weather.
His mood varies till a scary extend.
even scarier then moi!
such a wide spectrum;
from the wonderful friend to an immediate stranger.
so alarming obvious and lethal;
that a single look can put a cockroach to death.
yup! some people call it PMS.
but hey.. didnt realise a guy can have that too.
i do joke- maybe he's helping me PMS. haha.
nobody know MoodSwings like tsy.
tsy; the Queen of Moodswings. remember those days?
but hey! i do feel guilty!! haha.
so i understand moodswings, PMS, bad mood.
i can tolerate; to a such a huge extend that it sometimes even surprises me.
after the storm, i will still welcome one back with open arms.
to forget and forgive whatever damage my poor mind and heart experienced.
One can say i'm so very DumbDumb.
i dont give an eye for an eye;
especially not when i consider you a friend.
have nothing much to be proud of;
just the fact that i take care what's mine>.< (so possessive!!)
cant help it though..
maybe i have recieved enlightenment.
when someone PMS, in a bad mood,
refuses to speak or just- act differently from the norm,
i'll just immediately realise something must be wrong-
why are all those negative energy directed towards me?
have i done, or said something that brought about this treatment.
Panic.Worries. i must sort it out and make it alright again.
appease. appease. appease.
i will- to coax a smile, trying to revive the situation.
not many were that immune to my 'charm'..
often enough,
i'll just try harder if it doesnt work out.
DumbDumb as i can be..
i believe sincerity touches:)
I still remember the first time our dear friend had a PMS..
OngQQ (SGH gf) and i were so worried.
trying in vain to appease that someone.
With increased frequency..
At the 'n' th time,
i was told my OngQQ ( dear SGH gf) that:
hack him la. he bad mood his problem.
do friends treat each other by feeding each other glass?
i was told he's not worthy for my care.
how could the PMS so obviously be just towards me?
when i could no doubt say; we shld be the best buds..
The brain without doubt, condemned.
but the heart cant bear not to care.
hey! it's my friend. how could i do this?
i lasted ~5months.
haha. true to be told;
this is the final straw..
i didnt appease him, or try to coax him human again.
dunno if i'll live to regret..
am SO known,
for doing stuff without a thought for reciprocation.
i like to make people smile,
i like those small actions of mine to make someone's day.
the thought of wishing you'll be as nice to me,
as i am to you never crosses my mind.
if it was in my poly days,
immediate codemn and discrimination has already taken place if you were just to even block my way-.-
Sometimes i do wonder.. why do i try so hard?
is it because i cant stand to see someone not converted by my care.
is it because i'm overly concern?
is it because he's too much a bad habit of mine?
or is it because i'm that non-lian jia..
i do not know:(
so here am i...
trying to suppress all my anxiety and worries.
blocking out all negative thoughts.
feigning that i dont harbour a hope..
true to told here:
i dun wish for reciprocation, i just hope for all to be fine and be back to normal.
back to the point which i remember and hold dear..
i maybe labelled Dumb.
but hey! dont anyone know;
the extent of Dumb-ness is directly proportional to how much i care for you...
footnote:
doing nothing is worse then going through the extreme dumb-ness to right the situation.
i need strength!!
even i myself am amazed..
how come i'm back to blogging so quickly?
mustnt be that a good news.. haha.
it's a shame.
for me to forget how nice it is to spell everything out.
helps to straighten the thoughts! dont you agree?
i know i know..
there're just Some stuff, not encouraged to be known by the public.
Skills! i hope i still have them.
a happy past-time i could say:)
so tsy!! smikes.
Friend-
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance.
I just got to realise,
how easy is it for us to forget the meaning behind such a simple word.
i always do believe quality over quantity;
and always pride myself for knowing the best and having the best.
not that others are unworthy of my time and attention.
Exlusiveness!
i thought them to know me very well;
and of course! the very few who are non-lian jia.
at least towards me.
Reciprocate-
1. to give, feel etc in return.
2.to make a return, as for something given.
I was told that many people do something,
befriend somebody, be nice to somebody;
as a starter for reciprocation-
to hope that someone will treat them with the special treatment they recieved.
i must remind all- this is: lian jia!! -.-
A few months back,
i befriended such a person.
as lian jia as a human can be.
as petty as tsy can be.
as moody as a poly tsy can be. laughs*
Do Not Laugh.
( now i wondered if he's my retribution-.-)
unpredictable, like the weather.
His mood varies till a scary extend.
even scarier then moi!
such a wide spectrum;
from the wonderful friend to an immediate stranger.
so alarming obvious and lethal;
that a single look can put a cockroach to death.
yup! some people call it PMS.
but hey.. didnt realise a guy can have that too.
i do joke- maybe he's helping me PMS. haha.
nobody know MoodSwings like tsy.
tsy; the Queen of Moodswings. remember those days?
but hey! i do feel guilty!! haha.
so i understand moodswings, PMS, bad mood.
i can tolerate; to a such a huge extend that it sometimes even surprises me.
after the storm, i will still welcome one back with open arms.
to forget and forgive whatever damage my poor mind and heart experienced.
One can say i'm so very DumbDumb.
i dont give an eye for an eye;
especially not when i consider you a friend.
have nothing much to be proud of;
just the fact that i take care what's mine>.< (so possessive!!)
cant help it though..
maybe i have recieved enlightenment.
when someone PMS, in a bad mood,
refuses to speak or just- act differently from the norm,
i'll just immediately realise something must be wrong-
why are all those negative energy directed towards me?
have i done, or said something that brought about this treatment.
Panic.Worries. i must sort it out and make it alright again.
appease. appease. appease.
i will- to coax a smile, trying to revive the situation.
not many were that immune to my 'charm'..
often enough,
i'll just try harder if it doesnt work out.
DumbDumb as i can be..
i believe sincerity touches:)
I still remember the first time our dear friend had a PMS..
OngQQ (SGH gf) and i were so worried.
trying in vain to appease that someone.
With increased frequency..
At the 'n' th time,
i was told my OngQQ ( dear SGH gf) that:
hack him la. he bad mood his problem.
do friends treat each other by feeding each other glass?
i was told he's not worthy for my care.
how could the PMS so obviously be just towards me?
when i could no doubt say; we shld be the best buds..
The brain without doubt, condemned.
but the heart cant bear not to care.
hey! it's my friend. how could i do this?
i lasted ~5months.
haha. true to be told;
this is the final straw..
i didnt appease him, or try to coax him human again.
dunno if i'll live to regret..
am SO known,
for doing stuff without a thought for reciprocation.
i like to make people smile,
i like those small actions of mine to make someone's day.
the thought of wishing you'll be as nice to me,
as i am to you never crosses my mind.
if it was in my poly days,
immediate codemn and discrimination has already taken place if you were just to even block my way-.-
Sometimes i do wonder.. why do i try so hard?
is it because i cant stand to see someone not converted by my care.
is it because i'm overly concern?
is it because he's too much a bad habit of mine?
or is it because i'm that non-lian jia..
i do not know:(
so here am i...
trying to suppress all my anxiety and worries.
blocking out all negative thoughts.
feigning that i dont harbour a hope..
true to told here:
i dun wish for reciprocation, i just hope for all to be fine and be back to normal.
back to the point which i remember and hold dear..
i maybe labelled Dumb.
but hey! dont anyone know;
the extent of Dumb-ness is directly proportional to how much i care for you...
footnote:
doing nothing is worse then going through the extreme dumb-ness to right the situation.
i need strength!!
1/05/2010 08:22:00 PM
Friday, January 01, 2010
never a better time to return to my favourite past-time.
it's 2010 already!!
how fast!
a sentimental fool i am.
i was just going through all my previous postings,
trying to recall everything significant in 2009.
i was amazed at what i found.
alas!! so much i've forgotten.. >.<
quite an eventful year,
i Finally have the courage to bid my Bugis job good bye.
i am done with studying, for now.
i sent two of my Best Buds overseas.
and so much more..
in other words;
i survived 2009!! :)
New Year Resolutions;
i have none.
never been a fan of to-do list.
i'm more of the Bring-it-on-anytime kinda person.
may all just be well~
to all whom may be concerned.
yup! Miss Tan is surviving fine admist all the lian jia-ness.
i do Miss my usual circle of Slave and Aiwen though..
yes Slave as in you, jujie-.-
didnt get to crash at my GuGu's house that much these few months.
i still do call Everyday to make my presence known.
cant have her missing me!
she's my santuary.
after embracing all odds outside,
i know she'll be there to pick me up and nurse me back to health.
saranghae~
this new year!
i cant promise to buy the sun or charm the stars.
will constantly remember to dote on tsy:)
will uphold the virtue of non-lian jia-ness!
will try to prick my bad habits.
will continue admiring the art of human perfection.
will stay loyal to Yuan Chang>.<
all well at work and home..
and may the ONE surface!
Happy 2010:)
footnote:
kamsa for all the
love,
curses,
laugthers,
slaps,
advices,
worries and
conversations..
i treasure you so!
:)
in the coming year, qing duo duo zhi jiao wor..
P.S. due to the exclusiveness of this blog,
no appreciation is ever lian jia...
it's 2010 already!!
how fast!
a sentimental fool i am.
i was just going through all my previous postings,
trying to recall everything significant in 2009.
i was amazed at what i found.
alas!! so much i've forgotten.. >.<
quite an eventful year,
i Finally have the courage to bid my Bugis job good bye.
i am done with studying, for now.
i sent two of my Best Buds overseas.
and so much more..
in other words;
i survived 2009!! :)
New Year Resolutions;
i have none.
never been a fan of to-do list.
i'm more of the Bring-it-on-anytime kinda person.
may all just be well~
to all whom may be concerned.
yup! Miss Tan is surviving fine admist all the lian jia-ness.
i do Miss my usual circle of Slave and Aiwen though..
yes Slave as in you, jujie-.-
didnt get to crash at my GuGu's house that much these few months.
i still do call Everyday to make my presence known.
cant have her missing me!
she's my santuary.
after embracing all odds outside,
i know she'll be there to pick me up and nurse me back to health.
saranghae~
this new year!
i cant promise to buy the sun or charm the stars.
will constantly remember to dote on tsy:)
will uphold the virtue of non-lian jia-ness!
will try to prick my bad habits.
will continue admiring the art of human perfection.
will stay loyal to Yuan Chang>.<
all well at work and home..
and may the ONE surface!
Happy 2010:)
footnote:
kamsa for all the
love,
curses,
laugthers,
slaps,
advices,
worries and
conversations..
i treasure you so!
:)
in the coming year, qing duo duo zhi jiao wor..
P.S. due to the exclusiveness of this blog,
no appreciation is ever lian jia...
1/01/2010 08:47:00 PM