Saturday, January 03, 2009
deal with the past before moving to the present*
as i recalled:
last few days of 2008 or so.
i wrote about the One and xmas dinner etc.
maybe great minds think alike or what.
it cant be telepathy!
to my upmost surprise.
he came to apologise.
that night;
slept at 10pm; a dead man's sleep.
didnt even hear the phone ring.
early in the morning at 6am.
i saw it.. i was like!
awake Immediately.
wanted to text back to clarify stuff,
bt hey! it's hard to express what i wanna say;
in words so i decided to spit it out face to face.
but Alas!!
machiam nv hear de sit there. argh!!
so much courage was needed to say things face to face le.
so discouraged.
almost gave up; but nay!
i texted him briefly. of course, no reply:(
i wanted to scream de house down.
blah! dun get it wrong..
it's not because of interrupting my date or smth.
it wasnt even about it being a stupid action.
it was the sudden let down after the happy anticipation.
let me recite what i wanted to say:
BECAUSE,
already nobody is free to eat dinner le,
a very sad case isnt it.
the sudden news of You coming to join us;
(i dunno) but i guess mainly to pass time or what while waiting,
and 100% cause you wanna see us is already not quite correct.
but hey! it's you.
and you're coming.
(of course) will anticipate and ohmytian* be happy,
even though it's abit lian jia.
I had high hopes of seeing you.
was so happy.
even manage to get over the lian jia thingy.
and then what..you aint coming after all.
can you imagine that.
the sudden crash down to earth.
the only small little self-created hope dashed.
just like that_
for a cause yor friend come already de reason.
so SAD!! so Disappointing.
but who's to know.
so that's xmas eve drama.
i am not sure.
i may assume it.
i just wish to bring to light de modern human way of things.
tsy=caveman,
jst dun understand how it works..
irritated i will be, but i'll come to terms and accept it;
without kicking up a storm.
*i am still wondering about the telepathy thingy*
P.S.i tried my best to do what i wanna say in the form of words.
some may read it and understand it.
some may misunderstand.
some may be confused.
some may be offended.
but hey. i just wanna say. really.
PEACE my dear :)
as i recalled:
last few days of 2008 or so.
i wrote about the One and xmas dinner etc.
maybe great minds think alike or what.
it cant be telepathy!
to my upmost surprise.
he came to apologise.
that night;
slept at 10pm; a dead man's sleep.
didnt even hear the phone ring.
early in the morning at 6am.
i saw it.. i was like!
awake Immediately.
wanted to text back to clarify stuff,
bt hey! it's hard to express what i wanna say;
in words so i decided to spit it out face to face.
but Alas!!
machiam nv hear de sit there. argh!!
so much courage was needed to say things face to face le.
so discouraged.
almost gave up; but nay!
i texted him briefly. of course, no reply:(
i wanted to scream de house down.
blah! dun get it wrong..
it's not because of interrupting my date or smth.
it wasnt even about it being a stupid action.
it was the sudden let down after the happy anticipation.
let me recite what i wanted to say:
BECAUSE,
already nobody is free to eat dinner le,
a very sad case isnt it.
the sudden news of You coming to join us;
(i dunno) but i guess mainly to pass time or what while waiting,
and 100% cause you wanna see us is already not quite correct.
but hey! it's you.
and you're coming.
(of course) will anticipate and ohmytian* be happy,
even though it's abit lian jia.
I had high hopes of seeing you.
was so happy.
even manage to get over the lian jia thingy.
and then what..you aint coming after all.
can you imagine that.
the sudden crash down to earth.
the only small little self-created hope dashed.
just like that_
for a cause yor friend come already de reason.
so SAD!! so Disappointing.
but who's to know.
so that's xmas eve drama.
i am not sure.
i may assume it.
i just wish to bring to light de modern human way of things.
tsy=caveman,
jst dun understand how it works..
irritated i will be, but i'll come to terms and accept it;
without kicking up a storm.
*i am still wondering about the telepathy thingy*
P.S.i tried my best to do what i wanna say in the form of words.
some may read it and understand it.
some may misunderstand.
some may be confused.
some may be offended.
but hey. i just wanna say. really.
PEACE my dear :)
1/03/2009 12:26:00 AM